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Friday, November 6, 2015

The Emotion of the Acceptance

As you all know, I recently accepted a spot in the Practical Nursing program in January of 2016. I am 29 years old and am just getting to chase my dreams now.

Here is the thing... I have work SO hard the past few years to get all of the prerequisites to get in to the program. When I was in high school I not only didn't actually finish high school, I only took 1 of 6 required courses in gr 12 was English and I finished with a 64. Nursing is highly competitive and you need to have all course grades quite high to get in.

I was told my a teacher early in high school that I would never be a nurse. I kind of believed him. I gave up completely. Whats the point of trying if I am just going to fail. I don't need to have the best grades to be a cook. Ill just do that instead, I don't even need to finish high school to be a cook.

I tried that for a long time. I was the best cook I could possibly be. I even went to college to be an even better cook. I was the top of my class. After a few years it was becoming more and more difficult to keep pushing in a industry when you are treated like crap, working 16 hour days, no days off, no breaks, making peanuts - even being college educated when really all I want to be doing is being a nurse in a hospital, changing/ saving lives. Im aware that it will still be 12 hour days and no days off but I will be doing what I actually want to be doing.

I pushed so very hard to get all my pre requisites completed with a top grade. I have spent years getting to this place. It was not easy for me, especially overcoming the self doubt that was put in place by that teacher.

For this being such a huge accomplishment in my life I sort of expected everyone to see it the same and get all of these "Wow, Congrats I know you have worked so hard" or "you deserve it" type comments from people when the found out that I got accepted. But I think most people dont actually see it that way. When I tell people I have actually had them say "oh okay" which feels like its more of a oh wow that took forever, or finally you are getting your life on track 10 years late. It was really weird for me and was a little discouraging that the people the closest to me were not more congratulatory but that just means that this is going to be a personal journey that I am going to take on my own. I am going to become the best nurse that I can be and have the best live that I can have.

Sunday, October 18, 2015


I had gotten a letter from the school stating that they had received my application and I would hear a decision in the beginning of October.
The beginning of October came and went. The schools website states that deposits are due October 12. (Thanksgiving Sunday) On the 14th, I called the school just because I hadn't heard anything either way.

The lady I spoke to advised me that I was showing as ineligible. She looked into it a little further- she stated that I didn't have a chemistry mark. I definitely not only had a chemistry mark but I got it through the same school that I am applying to. She said she would look into it and call me back.

She called back 2 hours later- They found my mark! A+ with honors. The person that needed to recalculate my mark wasn't there that day. She was going to be off for the next 2 days but told me to call him the next day. I waiting till Friday. He hadn't heard anything about it. He checked the system while I was on the phone and seen that the mark was uploaded that morning. He recalculated my score right then and there and said "Oh wow, you will definitely get an offer. You will see your offer on Ocas by Monday"

Whooo hooo!!!

I checked like 5 times after that to see if it updated. Then I checked at 2am and there it was....
(Apparently someone uploads offers a 10 pm on a Friday night)

My offer has been accepted and now I need to figure out what my next steps are.

School starts in 2.5 months.
I was just promoted about 2 weeks ago at my job and am a half week shy of turning 29.
It is a very weird feeling. I am so happy I was able to get the offer in before turning 29- but just being promoted I feel so bad. I also really am regretting the conversation that I am only going to be able to work afternoon shifts. Right now I am actually working a schedule where I could actually still go to school and not effect work at all (besides being exhausted). If I say nothing, there is a good chance that I would be able to make it through the semester with out it ever getting in the way but of course I need to tell them. In which case, they will not be happy at all.

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Letter in the Mail!!

My school of choice got my hopes up when I see a letter arrive from them in the mail

I was literally shaking when I opened this letter. My heart was beating so fast- was this it? its the moment of truth. All of my hard work of a few years trying to get all the different prerequisites I needed to get accepted. Getting myself financially to a place where I would be able to pay for it....

I opened the letter............. "this is a receipt that we have received your application"

Apparently they send a letter to let you know they have gotten your application first. Keep that in mind when you are waiting for your acceptance letters.

The one good thing from this however is that it let me know that I should hear in the first little bit of October if I get in. Not to much longer now ...

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Back to school at 29! - Hopefully.

I have been working towards this for years. To be able to say that I am applying to post secondary school to be a nurse.

When I was in high school I wanted to be a Doctor. I have wanted to be an OBGYN since before I can remember until a teacher told me that I would never become a Dr. and would not even be able to be a nurse. This literally ruined my self confidence. I already had pretty severe social anxiety. I was so scared to fail that I didn't even end up graduating high school.

I left high school and became a Chef, a pretty damn good one at that. Every single time that I heard of someone being an RN, LPN/ RPN or PSW, I would be so envious. I wanted to be anything in the medical field. At this point I would have even just been a food worker in the hospital. The hospitals need a special course here to be able to work in them so I couldn't even do that.

After multiple different tries at online courses for upgrading and spending so much money, I kept getting stuck and giving up.

I found a program that is recognized by the college that I want to go to that offers all of the courses that I need for free. You just have to finish them in a certain amount of time with a good grade. If not then you don't qualify for the free programs after that.

I left high school with 27 of 30 credits. I did complete my literacy test and pass. I did not complete the community service hours (I did but like everything else I procrastinated and never got the paper work turned in)

I have since completed 5 courses. Each taking about 6 months and all with grades of 95%
Core Math
and am currently completing the 5th and final course.

Towards the end of August I was finally able to sit down in front of the computer and apply to RPN for January of 2016.

I highly doubt that I will get in because I still have one more course to complete and January has many less spaces available. All of the people that opted to take a semester off or that didnt get in to the September course have also applied for January. I am hopeful though. I have worked so long for this my one saving grace is that the way that the above courses work is that they are through the college of your choice. They will already have all of my grades and have followed me through my upgrades.

According to the calendar, all deposits (of $500) need to be in by October 12. That means that the offers will need to go out before that. Today we are the 17th of Sept. Sometime in the next 3 weeks I should find out whether or not I will be going back to school.

The worst part of this whole thing is that I have been trying forever to find out when to apply to January school and when you find out if you were accepted. No one knows, not even those that went to January starts. At this point it is just a waiting game.

The costs that I have incurred so far for applying:

-$107 for the application and transcript from my first college
- $12 for the second transcript because something got messed up with the first one and of course the only way for me to get it sorted was to pay again with out a refund. I didn't really fight them on it.
- $10 for the high school transcript that I had to pick up in person
- $15 to mail it with tracking to OCAS because I have had many items get lost in the mail

I need to get $500 ready for a deposit before Oct. 12 in case I actually get accepted. Which has been ready to go for a while but with the car purchase (view other blogs) and double insurance payment to start, I am going to be stressing about this next.

Now I just check every day on the site to see if I was accepted and check the mail box. Surprise- No one remembers how they heard that they were accepted.

I will let you all know when I hear from the college.